Going Through Changes (Explicit)

[5.65] Im going through changes
[13.98] Im going through changes
[20.55] Lately I really
[21.74] Feel like Im rollinfor delf like Philly
[24.39] Feel like Im losincontrol of myself I sincerely
[27.15] Apologize if all that I sound like
[29.61] Is Im complaininbut life keeps on complicatinand
[32.52] Im debatinon leavinthis world this evenin
[34.91] Even my girls can see Im grievinI try and hide it
[37.79] But I cant why do I act like Im all high and mighty
[40.61] When inside Im dyinI am finally realizinI need
[43.66] Help cant do it myself too weak
[46.03] Two weeks Ive been havinups and downs gointhrough peaks
[48.79] And valleys dillydallyinround with the idea
[51.75] Of endinthis s**t right here Im hatinmy reflection
[55.13] I walk around the house tryna fight mirrors
[57.38] I cant stand what I look like yeah
[59.55] I look fat but what do I care I give a f**k
[62.39] Only thing I fears Hailie Im afraid if I close my eyes
[65.48] That I might see her s**t
[67.25] Im going through changes
[75.44] Im going through changes
[81.96] I lock myself in the bedroom bathroom nappinat noon
[85.22] Yeah Dads in a bad mood hes always snappinat you
[87.85] Marshall what happened that you cant stop with these pills
[90.41] And youve fallen off with your skills and your own fans are laughinat you
[93.479996] It become a problem youre too p***y to tackle Get up
[96.229996] Be a man stand a real man woulda had this s**t handled
[99.33] Know you just had your heart ripped out and crushed
[101.520004] They say Proof just flipped out homie just whipped out and bust
[104.4] Nah it aint like Doody to do that he wouldnt f**kin
[107.58] Shoot at nobody hed fight first but dwellin
[109.92] On it only makes the night worse now Im poppinVics Percs
[113.11] And Methadone pills Yeah Em tight verse
[115.9] You killed it f**kind**g dealers hang around me like yes men
[119.270004] And they gondo whatever I says when I says it
[122.04] Its in their best interest to protect their investment
[124.84] And I just lost my f**kinbest friend so f**k it I guess then
[128.41] Im going through changes
[135.37] Dont know what Im gonna do
[137.56] Im going through changes
[139.25] But I just keep on going through changes
[143.47] My friends cant understand this new me thats understandable
[146.48] Man but think how bananas youd be youd be an animal too
[149.6] If you were trapped in this fame and caged in it like a zoo
[152.56] And everybodys lookinat you what you want me to do
[155.5] Im startinto live like a recluse
[157.27] And the truth is fames startinto give me an excuse
[160.04001] To be at an alltime low I sit alone in my home theater
[163.92] Watchinthe same d**n DVD of the
[165.98] First tour the last tour he was still alive
[168.52] And it hurts so I fast forward sleeping pillsll make me feel alright
[172.11] And if Im still awake in the middle of the night
[174.51] Ill just take a couple more yeah youre motherf**kinright
[177.31] I aint slowindown for no one I am almost homeward bound
[180.15] Almost in a coma yeah homie come on dole em out
[182.92] Daddy dont you die on me Daddy better hold your ground
[185.89] F**k dont I know the sound of that voice Yeah baby hold me down
[189.51] Daddy
[190.22] Im going through changes
[195.26] Daddy
[196.74] Dont know what Im gonna do
[199.20999] Im going through changes
[200.99] But I just keep on going through changes
[204.94] Wake up in the hospital full of tubes but somehow Im pullinthrough
[208.69] Swear when I come back Ima be bulletproof
[210.76] Ima do it just for Proof I think I should state a few
[213.58] Facts cause I may not get a chance again to say the truth
[216.4] S**t it just hit me that what if I would notve made it through
[219.04001] I think about the things I woulda never got to say to you
[221.83] Id never get to make it right so heres what I came to do
[224.7] Hailie this one is for you Whitney and Alaina too
[227.52] I still love your mother thatll never change
[229.65] Think about her every day we just could never get it together hey
[233.15] Wish there was a better way for me to say it
[235.23] But I swear on everything Id do anything for her on any day
[238.72] There are just too many things to explain when it rains
[241.5] Guess it pours yes it does wish there wasnt any pain
[244.32] But I cant pretend there aint I aint placinany blame
[247.07] I aint pointinfingers Heaven knows Ive never been a saint
[249.86] I know that it feels like we just pissed away our history
[252.49] And just today I looked at your picture almost if to say
[255.29] I miss you subconsciously wish it didnt end this way
[258.19] But I just had to get away dont know why I dont know what else to say
[261.86] I guess Im
[262.59] Im going through changes
[269.34] Dont know what Im gonna do
[271.51] Im going through changes
[273.18] But I just keep on going through changes